Little Gifts

Well here it is now, weeks since my last post. I had planned to blog this deep essay on the details of my birthday celebration, and then another on my thoughts on something profound I learned in a Bible study, of course I can't now even remember what it was on, and then I started actually writing this whole other blog on some of the lessons I'm learning from the kids, which I think maybe I will someday actually re-write, but who knows, a lot of goals are set and never reached by me in terms of blogging...Anyway, so today I'm just thankful for little gifts. Today was kinda a hard day in some aspects. I was trying to make a big decision and just feeling overwhelmed by it, and afraid of failing of course. This, as usual, led me to despair at my lack of faith in the Lord and in His control over my mistakes and decisions...I got in the shower this afternoon, after returning from the gym and honestly thought to myself, "oh good, I can get in the shower and just cry and no one will hear me and it will feel so good." Well when I got out of the shower I honestly thought, "oh shoot! I forgot to cry!" So apparently my mind wandered onto some other topic that was less upsetting while I was showering! So that was one little gift I think. Then I came over to the computer )after I was all dried and changed of course) and a few minutes later I hear little footsteps and I look over and little Aspen toddled up, with neon pink swimming goggles on...then she went and pulled up a little chair next to me and stood on it so she'd be tall enough to comb my hair...I just thought, "thanks God for these little moments!"
Of course, just now she was trying to hide from me while holding a bottle of children's tylenol and then threw a fit when I took it away and then her sister started throwing a fit because she wanted me to hold her at exactly that moment and I wouldn't...but again, I just have to trust...I opened my email just a few minutes ago and this verse was in an email from my mom:
Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD and whose trust is the LORD,
for he will be like a tree planted by the water, that extends it roots by the stream,
and will not fear when the heat comes, but its leaves will be green,
and it will not be anxious in a year of drought, nor cease to yield its fruit.
Jeremiah 17:7-8
Amen to that! I pray that He would help me to be such a (wo)man!