Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Thank You to Mi Familia! Uh..Mein Familie!

Last night before going to bed I wanted to read...but with my nook out of action I didn't have much...then it popped into my head- the letters!!

My wonderful, thoughtful, brilliant family hid these in my suitcase before I left so that when I got to Germany and unpacked my bag I found a letter from each of them- including Alexis and Charlotte...Also, I had some cards from Grace- one from before going on the Crossover trip, and one from when we said goodbye in CA...

I grabbed them off my shelf and laid down in my bed to re-visit these pieces of encouragement, love, and humor...

I love every word...and I love the picture Alexis drew of herfself as a cowgirl because she is 'Alexis Texas', and the picture Char drew- stick figures of us hugging--with her standing on a chair so she could reach me :)

What a huge blessing! Thank you guys so much!

Dad, thank you for your words, especially about filling up our tanks :)

Mom, thank you for missing me terribly and for your joy over this opportunity for me...
Megan, thank you for counting me one of your best friends, I reciprocate that completely...so good to have someone who echos my thoughs and also laughs at pretty much anything :)

Brian, wow, your words were precious. Thank you for being my big brother and for the confidence you give me!

Alexis, I miss playing games with you too! Thank you so much for the love you sent me and the wonderful picture!

Charlotte, Thank you for hoping that I have fun, I am having fun! Thank you for the picture, I wish I could give you and your family all hugs right now!

Luke, you didnt write anything but I am sure that if you had it would have said that I am your favorite aunt of all time and even though you pretend to like Grandpa the best, you really like me the best...Thank you for finally sharing that :) Ha ha!

Amanda, thank you so much for your facebook messages, I love them. You have been so real with me and a huge supporter!


Grace, thank you so much for the words of confidence...they mean a lot to me...thank you for your encouragement and belief!!!

I love you all! Thank you so much for loving me!

Don't Miss the Bus!

So yesteray began as most of my days do...I woke up when I was done sleeping (sounds nice, doesn't it?) and looked out the window...sunshine, Yes! (This morning I looked out the window and there was a silvery haze, but don't worry it burned off)...

I turned on Cosi's computer, went downstairs for my customary coffee and Müsli, and came back to check facebook, email etc...Worked a bit on German, etc. This has been the daily routine...

In the afternoon it was time to go to the Spandau gym to coach the youth team. Cosi and I left, hopeful that this time around more than 1 kid would show up (though we had a lot of fun with him last time ha ha)...

Got to the gym and our one had turned to three...baby steps...All three are very raw, a 7 year old girl who is just learning the game for the first time (the sister of Denis, who I had mentioned before- I met him at Crossover camp in 2008), the 10 yr old boy who had been there last week, and a 14 year old boy who is going to play for Cosi's dad and has little experience and is looking to catch up...

We had our hour and a half practice (the usual length here it seems) and it went well. I think that the 14 year old in particular is eager to learn. Cosi remains confident that more and more kids will show up. I am optimistic as well...

So after all the kids left the gym, Cosi and I headed to the bus station...As we walked up to the intersection where we need to cross to get to our stop, we saw our bus pull up across the street...of course there were cars coming so we could not run across...we missed the bus...

At first this seemed a minor problem. We can just wait for the next bus...We looked at the bus schedule upon crossing the street (it is posted at the stop)...the next bus would not come for 20 min...we decided to walk a few stops ahead rather than stand there...

We made it to another station in about 10 min...a bus started coming our way, but the sign on the front of the bus read `bus endet hier' = bus ends here...this was the end of the line for the bus...we laughed, okay we will wait for the next one...a few minutes later one came...again, 'bus ended hier' we laughed again, this is crazy!!

Two more buses drove by us with that sign...it was becoming less funny. A guy on the corner next to us suddenly ran across the street- a bus had pulled up on the other corner...by the time we realized it, it was too late. Thanks dude for the heads up...sheesh...

I said to Cosi, 'hey, maybe we should check the sign and see if any more buses will even come to this stop today.' She checked it out, sure enough, it said that there would not be another bus...We crossed the street to the other bus stop...waited, waited waited...Finally we decided, let's walk again...We started down the street to go to the next station...within thirty seconds of us walking a bus pulled up to the station across the street we had first been staning at--where the schedule said there would not be another bus for the day...again, we missed the bus...

We walked on, laughing at our situation, saying that the 'bus gods' must be having a joke at our expense...We made it to the next station and waited...a bus came and actually stopped! We jumped on in victory!

Took the bus to the train station (a very short ride at this point bc we had walked so far)...Got off and went to our track...got up the stairs and saw the schedule for the train- we were on the wrong track...went back downstairs and checked the main schedule again...our train would not be there for at least another 20 min...

We went to a bakery in the train station and got some rolls to eat while we waited...My favorite German phrase kept popping in my head 'ich habe hunger' = I am hungry...

We waited for our train, which of course, came almost ten minutes late...Boarded...road it to Falkensee then started the 15 minute walk home...By the time we got home over two hours had passed since the end of practice...it usually takes about 30 min...We said to ourselves, next time DO NOT MISS THE BUS!

We were tired and so glad to finally be home and eating dinner--carrot soup!!

Möhre= carrot
Müde= tired

Ha ha, this was not a joke on me (though of course we made jokes about it), and it was a very delicious way to end our misadventure...

Monday, September 12, 2011

First Tournament

Well it just hit me that I have now been here for 1 week. Part of me feels like it should have been much longer than that...was I really sitting on an airplane in the Bahamas only a week ago? Time moves slowly right now because I have so much of it...

I start out by apologizing because our team travelled to another town this weekend and I am lame and forgot to take my camera. I have zero pictures to document my trip to Leipzig.



If you find Berlin, look down and just a little to the left to see where Leipzig is, about a 2 hour drive away...(You can click on the map to make it bigger so you can actually read the city names)

We met on Saturday morning and split into cars to drive to the tournament. We stopped at McDonald's about halfway through. Everyone ordered coffee except for me who figured I am always hungry and didn't know when we would eat again, so I got orange juice and a breakfast sandwich. Of course I ordered last and of course it took forever and a day for my order to be done. Love making a group of people who you really don't know wait and wait...but I am so glad I did it. I had eaten probably two and a half hours earlier at this point, and we still had another hour at least in the car.

We got to the gym with about an hour before our scheduled game time, but the team from Poland was late so we didn't play till probably an hour after we were supposed to. I honestly don't know how my teammates did it. Maybe some of them were eating at times I did not see? Maybe German women have super stamina?

Anyway, so our first game was against a team from Poland- supposedly the best team in the tournament. Whatever. They got a little lead on us to start the game but we came right back. I was able to hit several jumpshots in a row to get us going and the team really started to pick it up...

Note on the Polish team- there were several of them who had shaved about a 2.5 inch strip of the side of their heads...weird. I have actually seen a few Germans who have done this too, but none on our team and the girls on my team thought it was weird too.

Anyway, we pulled out the win in the first game and everyone was very excited. Our coach is a young guy, 23 years old, who so far is very positive and patient. He has a lot of passion for coaching. I enjoy him. The girls are fun as well. On the court, as far as I can tell (shoot, they could be saying pretty much anything and I would have no idea) they are also positive and get along. We ran a lot of 4 out 1 in and just try to penetrate to the basket. It seems that, for the most part, if you just drive to the basket you will get a foul called. It is a little bit crazy...

We had the rest of the day free so we showered up and watched some of the next game after us. We ate dinner as a team at the tournament in a hospitality room wehre the meal was provided and that was fun. A few of the girls told us a story about overhearing a German girl in a bar who was speaking English to her friend and started every sentence with, 'HONestly,' but with a hard pronunciationg of the H...as you would use it in have or how...they thought it was hysterical so the entire two days girls would randomly exclaim, 'HONestly!' I used this oncee to get a laugh before our second game when we were warming up and shooting free throws, I waited till our point guard Claudia was about to shoot then pulled it out...Everyone got a good laugh out of that...(and she missed the shot, so I guess it worked ha)

That night we went into the main downtown/square of Leipzig as a group. No one was ordering food so I just got coffee...mistake. I think it might need to be my new mantra, if there is an option to get food, just get it. It was a good time to talk to some of the girls and find out more about them (Some of them speak very good English so we can have a conversation just fine)... One is a project manager for some company, another is a teacher in an elementary school, another works with handicap people...They seem to have a great sense of humor...Another girl who was just playing with us for this tournament is a doctor. She was telling me how she was the team doctor for their U16 team that won the Euro cup...she had to rush back early before the championship game to do a back surgery, but she had a picture of herself on her phone where you could see that she wore a team jersey under her scrubs when she went to do the operation...She is a really funny, really energetic person...

So that night we were split up into groups and we stayed with families/players from Leipzig. I was with two girls, Dani who is about my height, and Louisa who is about 6'4"...We were shown to the rooms where we would stay- down in a basement turned apartment with one room with a tiny twin bed, and then the couch in the family room area that was folded out to a twin sized bed with two comforters folded on it, showing that two of us were meant to sleep there...uh...well guess who got the bedroom, of course Louisa, none of us would have argued that for a second...but that left Dani and I to squeeze onto the couch. I couldn't do it. I couldn't sleep feeling that at any moment I was going to either fall off the bed or roll onto this girl that I dont know (and who speaks very little English)...I moved to the floor. It was a wooden floor with a rug on it- preeeetty hard. I prayed and asked God to help me to somehow sleep and He provided...

The next morning we got up and got ready. I had a little time to read my Bible so I was greatful for that. We ate breakfast (why didnt I pack something to take with me??) and left for the gym. We were there almost 2 hours before our game so we watched the game before us.

We took the court at 12:30 against the Leipzig team.


http://www.eurobasket.com/team.asp?Cntry=Germany&Team=7866&Page=1

That is a link to their team page, although it is not entirely accurate. There are no Americans on their team anymore...The women from the Leipzig team that we stayed with the night before kept joking around that they wanted to try to get us drunk so that we would be out of it for our game. Thankfully, that did not happen. Ha ha. We got off to a great start, 10-0 run to get things going, but in the second quarter we started falling apart a little bit. At half time it was tied up, I think at 31 if I remember correctly. In the second half it was back and forth for a bit (we play 4 10 minute quarters)...Going into the fourth we had a small lead, maybe 8 points...and we were able to keep that up to win the game.

We then had an hour break before the next game. We took about 25 minutes to go outside to sit...in the sun!! I was so happy to have a sunny day. I really had thought all sunny days were behind us. We soaked it up and ate some snacks, which was so good because I was literally getting lightheaded by the end of the second game.

In the final game we played a team from Austria that was comprised mainly of girls that looked like they were 14-16 years old. I felt bad for them a little bit, though I am sure that the experience is good for them. We did not play great, which I think happens when you have just played and your competition is not the best, but we won by 25. I did not play the first quarter as Timur (our coach) was trying some different things...that was fine with me...In the second and third quarter I played quite a bit (I think the whole time actually) and even played some point guard...we tried some new things offensively and defensively, particularly a 1-3-1. I started on the wing, played there for a while, then was moved to the bottom where I was running the baseline, and then got moved to the top...At the end of the 3rd quarter Timur asked me how I was doing and I said I was ready for a break...ha ha, I was dying at that point. I played the whole quarter and that was a lot to play the bottom and then the top of a 1-3-1...

So we came out of the tournament the winners going 3-0. Our team got a trophy and we had fun. One of the girls on my team asked me how I liked playing with them, if it was good or if I felt bored or something...I let her know that I liked it a lot.

I could go on and on with details of the night but I will spare you. :) The biggest thing I would say is that I am thankful for a good weekend- no injuries, had fun playing, enjoyed the team and coach, and learned a valuable lesson- pack food :)

The last thing I would mention is that the coach drove me home last night and we had a good conversation in the car. We talked about our team and the potential there, but also about my potential as a player and playing first league. He said I am 100% capable of playing first league and he really thinks I will get picked up. He said it is just a matter of continuing to play and be seen. That was great input to receive!

This week we will practice and get ready for our tournament in Poland. Also, I will have the two training times for the 'team' I am to coach in Spandau. Please pray that kids will show up this week!!

Friday, September 9, 2011

Watch Your Language

Ok so...I have been trying to learn some German...every day I have a lot of freetime so I have been listening to this cd my dad gave me of lessons in basic German stuff- asking for directions, ordering in a restaurant, times and days of the week, etc...

Last night on the way home from practice we were in the train station with about 30 min to wait for our train (me, Cosi, and Cara- the girls have gone with me the last two times so I can learn the way before doing it solo)...I was pretty hungry so the girls said it was time for me to try currywurst. They also told me I should order in German...I walked up to the counter and bashfully squeaked out 'ich möchte eine klein curryworst' translation: I would like a small curryworst...The guy nodded at me, rang up my food and I handed him some money...I wish. NO! That is never how it goes! He ran off a string of questions which of course I did not understand a word of! I felt myself getting embarrassed and I laughed and said, 'I have no idea'...of course I panicked...what do you always get asked in such ordering situations? The girls reminded me- he wants to know if you want a drink or fries or anything with it...I turned back, 'oh, no no, just curryworst' (German speaking over)...After paying the bill the dude then went off on some other long sentence...I just nodded and said to the girls, now what did he say? Apparently the usual, something about have a good night...sigh...

(A note on currywurst...this is like a hot dog/sausage substance with a sauce like ketchup with curry...it is very good)

Next as we were waiting for our train I decided again to try to work on my German...I turned to Cara and asked, 'Bis du möhre'? Cosi started cracking up...hard...'Cosi! How can I practice German if you are always laughing at me!?'
'I am sorry!' She cried, 'but you just asked Cara if she is a carrot!'

Oh.

möhre= carrot (pronunciation guide- Muh reh)
Müde= tired...(pronunciation guide- Muh deh)

it really sounds the same...sheesh...

Whatever shred of 'just try it-ness' I had in me towards speaking German has been thoroughly abused...

On a postive note...for breakfast I had chocolate Müsli...America needs to jump on that train as soon as possible...

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Day Two and Three

Well the sleeping pill was not quite as magical last night and I woke up pretty frequently, but at least I was able to go to bed around a normal time- 11:20 or so, and wake up at a normal time 7:40…No popping up wide awake at 4 am or anything…. So I didn’t mention it beforehand, but at Guido’s practice on Monday night I was able to jump in to one of the fast break drills with the boys and that was really fun. I also shot around on a side basket for a while and it felt good to move around. I think it definitely helped to keep me awake past 7 pm… Yesterday I slept in till a little after nine (went to bed around 10:30) so I woke up feeling really good. Everyone was already gone of course so I went downstairs to find something to eat and I found this:


The note says, "Im full with coffee for Jess!" Sorry my pictures stink.

These girls are so sweet! The night before Cara (Cosi’s sister) had given me this jar of gummies, and they also provided me with a bottle of flat water that I could put in my room (everyone in Europe it seems loves carbonated water…I can drink it no problem but flat just tastes better to me still)….

Yeah the jar was full of candy before I took the picture. I should have taken it before eating most of it...typical...

I ate my breakfast and spent a good amount of time yesterday working on the blog post, checking up on facebook, and of course, watching a you tube video on how to pronounce the letters of the German alphabet….I read my Bible and had time to pray for just about every person I’ve ever met and then spent some time planning my practice for the evening….

Practice went….great! Ha ha, not one kid showed up. But highlights were that Cara had gone with me to practice so that she could show me the way via the train and bus I will take myself in the future. We had fun travelling together as we worked on her English a little and a lot on my German…

Montag Dienstag Mitvoch Donnerstag Frietag Samstag Sonntag Those are, I hope, the days of the week we worked on. I also found out that the word for gate, door, and a soccer goal is all the same. I can say it, but I have no idea how it is spelled…sounds to me sort of like tour but with the “r” being more of an “ah” sound…

Cosi met us at the gym and we waited a few minutes to see if any kids would show up. When none did, we decided to go to my practice for ASV Moabit Berlin- the 2nd league team I am to start playing for. On the way Mike Opitz called and he explained that he had told some of the kids that I might not be there on Tuesday because of all the craziness with my flights…He thinks kids will definitely be there on Friday. He also said he will pick me up today around 11 am to talk about details of the coaching/playing/finances deal…He also mentioned that there is a first league team that I might need to travel to go see. I hope that part is true!

We found the gym in Moabit, Clara was our faithful navigator, having looked up the address on the internet on her phone. Another train ride, another bus ride and we were there. The coach saw me in the hallway and came over and greeted me warmly. Cosi explained to him about my practices with coaching overlapping with his practices. He told me it was no problem at all and that he was happy I was there…Also, there is a tournament this weekend that I can play in.

Practice went really well. I felt pretty good and the girls were very friendly.Timur told me from the start that he would speak German and that two of my teammates could translate for me. It went just fine. There was only one drill where I was pretty confused and it took a few minutes for them to explain it to me extra- but I would like to blame it on my translator who told me we were going to shoot to miss- it made the drill make no sense in my mind ;) ha ha! But I got it quickly enough…

To start practice we spent time doing a plyo circuit with some defensive slides, footwork through cones, jumping, medicine ball work, and short sprints. It really felt good to work out like that. Then we went into some shooting and I shot well.

From there 2 on 2. My partner and I won every game, we had a good pic and roll system going. I felt a little bad for her though because nearly every time the defense played the roller and left me open coming off the screen, so I just kept shooting or going for the layup. I kept thinking this would set it up the next time for her for the score, the defense will adjust…but no. Oh well, by the last game she was kinda laughing about it so I think it’s ok.

We learned some offense in their secondary break. We only had 8 players at practice (Timur the coach had warned me that we’d be low in numbers that night) so we played four on four in the halfcourt with Timur as the all time point guard for both teams, and we played the half court breakdown of the break. This was really fun. We were playing to 6 and my team barely won 6-5. I need to work on my backdoor pass. One thing I have noticed playing in Europe is they go back door way more than we do and they throw the backdoor pass way more than we do. I felt bad because this one guard on the team kept going back door but I kept throwing the ball to someone else because I was uncomfortable with the pass and because I felt like she was right under the basket…but she seemed to expect the ball there. I talked to her about it afterward and explained to her how we would generally not throw that pass but that I will try to figure it out. She was very understanding with me which I was thankful for.

We finished practice with some more partner shooting. We huddled up and the team said some cheer of which I had no clue what they were saying, so I just said “yeah, that!” and the girls laughed.

Timur came up to me afterward and told me again that he would really like for me to play. Marcel is going to come with me to practice on Thursday to talk with TImur to help work out more details as far as me coaching and playing and as far as payment. There is the tournament this weekend and then another one the following weekend in Poland. We would stay two nights in Poland I think, wondering if I’ll see anything/do anything that will count as really Polish and giving me an idea of how Poland is different from Germany. Hope so!

Please keep praying that details work out financially, that maybe there is a real opportunity with a first league team and that it would be a good opportunity for me…Also pray that I can pick up on German quickly…I would like to interact with Guido and Clara more but I think it is language that really limits that. Also, it sounds like there will be a lot of games on Sundays so I’m not sure what the church factor will look like, but there is a possible evening service at one church, and another thought that’s been running through my mind if I stay in this town is to try to start a small Bible study with the Christians that we know during the week… Oh, and the food so far is good  Lots of pizza on homemade dough! Yum!

Day Three:
Well I tried to post the day two thing this morning (Wed am9 but it was not working so I am now posting it Wed evening and I have another update...Mike stopped by the house today and filled me in on a few things.
First of all he said that the coach from practice last night thought I did a good job, so that is always pleasing to hear!

Secondly he said that hopefully next week I can go to try out with a first league team...Of course I do not remember the name of the city it is in, but I do know that it is three hours away from here...

Third he told me that he thinks I should for sure go home for Christmas if I can afford it because he says it is important for family to be together for Christmas- especially for Americans. He said that in his experience Americans get "homesick and moody" around november, so they should always go home for a couple weeks for Christmas if they can...let the fundraising begin ;) family, in lieu of Christmas presents I will take money towards a flight!!

All in all, it was a good conversation with Mike. In an hour I will go to the gym in Spandau to work out a little bit. Marcel's team has practice at 8 so I should see him and catch up with more details then. Mike says Marcel knows more and has also been working on getting me an apartment...I had no idea about that!

K that is all for now (ha, as if that was short!!)

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

It Starts

This process so far has been quite surreal. I have had to continually tell myself what I am doing- “I am going to Germany, not for a vacation.
The first flight went by pretty quickly. Sat next to a man and his little boy, on their way to Disneyworld. I watched a dumb movie for most of the flight.

The flight to Germany was the most eventful flight I have ever been a part of. Talk about the things you’d like to have someone with you for. The first few hours I was sitting in the back row next to a young German couple who felt it necessary to kiss every 30 seconds. Gross…I tried to focus on other things…Then one of the flight attendants came on over the intercom to tell us that because of a medical emergency with one of the passengers, we would have to turn around and go back to Miami. A few minutes later several attendants and one of the other passengers carried a man who looked very purple down the aisle to the back of the plane. A bit later we were told that we were going to have to land in the Bahamas instead. Apparently the other passenger helping to carry the man was a doctor and he didn’t think that the man would survive the extra thirty minutes it would take to get to Miami as opposed to landing in the Bahamas.


The dying man’s wife came and sat down behind me. I just kept hearing her apologize to the flight attendant, “I am so sorry. I feel so bad for all of these people.” The flight attendant kept assuring her that it was fine, that everyone would understand. The woman didn’t seem distraught at all over her husband. She remarked, “he’s probably going to be fine, as soon as we land.” As though the guy was just being dramatic. I felt so sad for this couple, for the man fighting for his life, for his seemingly unaffected wife, and for the strange relationship they must have. After about an hour and a half, the plane began circling down down and down. I could see the altitude numbers on the PA screen dropping….soon we were on the ground and the flight attendants opened the back emergency exit door. The wife said, “Oh good, we’re going out back here? Now we don’t have to walk by all those people.” Surely, I thought, this woman is somewhat in shock.



The man was taken from the plane and put on an ambulance. Then the waiting began. “we have to fill out paperwork” we were told. We waited an hour. “We have to get more fuel” added to the wait. Then, “We must contact our headquarters in Berlin to see where we should go, we cannot go back to America.” One hour turned to two, then three. Then we heard “we are still waiting on word from Berlin. We will serve a cold meal and turn on a movie.” I ate my cold sandwich and watched the second dumb movie in two days, this time “Arthur.” I drifted in and out of sleep. By the end of the movie we had gotten word that we would have to go to Punta Cana, in the Dominican Republic. Air Berlin had a station there. The crew would get their mandatory 10 hour break and we would all be put up in a hotel. The hour and a half flight commenced.

We landed in the D.R. in the middle of the night. Most everything was dark and I couldn’t make out what the place looked like, except for the building.

We went into the open air airport and got our baggage. I was disappointed to find out our luggage wouldn’t stay on the plane because I didn’t want to have to deal with my two mammoth suitcases..but oh well. Up to this point I had made very little communication with anyone. About 90 percent of the people on the flight were German and the combination of the language barrier and my fatigue led me to stay quiet most of the day. Now in the airport I took my cues from my fellow passengers. There’s a luggage cart around that corner. I waited in the back of the crowd for it to thin out so I would have space to maneuver the insanely heavy bags I had packed. I loaded them up and followed the line through customs. I got another coveted stamp in my passport and followed the trail of people back out to the front of the airport. An airport service man took my bags from the cart and put them onto a dolley and took them out to buses that everyone was loading onto. Of course I had no money for tip, hopefully this man understood our situation? I got on the bus and picked a spot to settle in. We were told we were going to a hotel 30 min away.

On arriving and again unloading everyone’s bags, we now migrated to a meeting room where we would be registered with the hotel. I started realizing that I was definitely with Europeans- no one is polite about lines or space. The rule is there are no rules, it’s every man for himself and I would have to decide whether or not I was going to do things their way or be last in everything. I continued to deal with this dilemma all night as I could not bring myself to cut in front of people, to throw my body or bags in front of someone next to me. I continually felt frustrated by the people who would see a line of people and yet walk right to the front and jump in.

My dilemma led me to being the very last passenger in my hotel room- I later found out that another passenger had already been sleeping in his room for two hours by the time I got to my room around 5:30 in the morning. Upon entering my room I was able to forget my exhaustion for a second as my eyes beheld the large suite with a king sized bed, couch and sitting area and balcony leading out to one of the pools. I searched the mini fridge and found that the contents were included with the stay and I helped myself to the only food item inside- a bag of lays potato chips. The first food I had eaten since the cold sandwich, those chips had never tasted so good.


I tried to get the internet up on my computer so I could check in with family and friends, but no dice. Apparently the one thing not included in this all included resort was free wi-fi. I shut the laptop down, set two alarms, got ready for bed and crawled into that large slice of heaven for the next four hours.




I woke up around 10 on Sunday morning. I walked out to my balcony to spend a few minutes looking at:


I packed up my things and set out to find the front desk again. I stepped out the door to amazing humidity. The walk to the front desk had me sweating and I realized the jeans and t-shirt were a huge mistake. I went back to my room and changed. I tried calling the front desk to see if they could send someone to help me with my bags but no one answered. I set out with my two huge bags, backpack and purse. I was sweating bullets as I pulled those 100+ pounds down the sidewalk. I spotted one of the hotel bell boys with a bag cart about halfway through my trek and waited for him to come help me. Sure enough he offered to take my bags and I gladly let him. He said he had to go to one more room to pick up bags and he’d meet me at the front desk. I obliged, praying that I really would see him and my bags again…Back at the “lobby” (a huge open air room with bar area, restaurant and lounge) I searched for something to eat and drink. I found pineapple juice and a table with pastries. I downed two of the pastries and a few cups of juice and waited for my bags which yes, did show up. Again I had no money to pay the man and just hoped he wouldn’t hate me too much.
Next it was getting onto the bus. I joined the crowd of people from my flight, making some small talk with a few of the girls I remembered from the night before. After about an hour’s wait all of us were loaded again onto buses. A guy named Vijay began talking with me on the bus from across the aisle. We chatted on the ride to the airport. Upon arriving our bags were unloaded and the airport workers were waiting to help us with bags. I knew they were all hungry for tips and I tried to just grab my own bags to avoid once again disappointing some worker, but of course I wasn’t fast enough. I followed some dude with my bags to the line and I tried to explain to him that I didn’t have any money as he just stood next to me in line. Vijay came up behind me and handed me a $5. I thanked him and handed it to the man who then nodded at me and left…I thanked Vijay again and offered him some Euro but he told me not to worry about it. We were now at the back of yet another line, which was obviously going to be an hour at least of a wait. We continued chatting and making small talk. He is from India but works in Paris. He was giving me tips about living in Europe- keep an open mind, don’t be offended by harsh comments because Europeans speak their minds and don’t sugar coat things, try to learn the language, etcetc etc. He helped me roll one of my bags through the line and “soon” enough we were at the front of the line.
Next it was back through security and to our gate. Of course our gate didn’t say Berlin on it, but Miami. We spent a few minutes trying to figure out if we were at the right gate, and ended up just hoping for the best, taking the word of some of our fellow passengers that we were in the right place. I realized how much on this trip I just hoped for the best and followed along. I hope that this method continues to give me the success it has so far . Sure enough we got on the correct flight another hour or so later. Once in the air it was crazy to think of all we had been through so far.
Vijay and I talked some more on the plane. Eventually we were able to talk about God. Funny enough, it came up when he asked me what music I liked and I said in my list that I listen to Christian music. He began to tell me why he doesn’t like Christian music though he is a Catholic. I then got to explain why I do like it, how it reminds me about the truths about God, how it directs my heart to praise and admire Him, how God has used it in my life during hard times to encourage me…This led into talking about all sorts of things in regards to Christ and the Bible. Vijay asked me at some point if I had a lot of friends who believe like I do and I was able to tell him more about that. I am hoping that I could show him someone with a genuine relationship with God.
With about four hours to go in our trip we both decided to try to sleep. Of course that didn’t go so well, but I slept on and off for the next few hours. Finally they served us “breakfast” which I was very excited for and of course disappointed to find we were already starting the German breakfast of bread, lunch meat, and cheese. At least I got some coffee!

On arriving to Berlin we began to clap. Our journey was finally ended. Vijay helped me to collect my bags (he didn’t have to get his as he was still going on to Paris). As soon as I walked out of the baggage claim Cosi was there and we hugged. It was so great to see her! Her Opa had brought her and would drive us home. He didn’t speak any English but he was very sweet. I wished I could have spoken to him. I just kept saying thank you.

When we got home Cosi had to go back to school and everyone else was gone. I took a few minutes to get online and check facebook then I went to my room and crashed. I took comfort in the fact that I had some sleeping pills so I could take one at night . The four hour nap felt amazing.



When I woke up everyone was home and were gathering to eat so I joined them. Delicious! Rice and chicken. We watched a little bit of the German basketball team playing Latvia, Nowitski was a pleasure to see again though it was Chris Kaman who was doing most of the scoring in the part of the game we saw. Soon it was off to Guido’s practice (Guido is Cosi’s dad and he coaches a club team of 16 year old boys). Cosi and I went along because some of the boys I know from Crossover were on the team- including Kjell who is the boy in the family that hosted Carrie and I this year. I was so excited to see him, and Adrienne, both who have been at Crossover every year that I have been. Then I saw Florian, a boy from last year and then Denis! I was so surprised to see Denis, he was walking up to me and I did not recognize him at all. I was thinking “does this guy know me? He is walking up to me like he does”…then I realized it was him! Denis came to Crossover in 2008. He was there again in 2009 but I wasn’t, and in 2010 and this summer he was on vacation during camp, so this was my first time to see him in three years. He is all grown up! He was very excited to see me and told me that he has great memories from 2008, especially from me answering his questions about God. What a wonderful way to be greeted!!

All this to say, the start of this journey has already been very eventful. I am excited to be here but still nervous for how things will work out. I just keep turning that back over to God. So far it looks like the team I will coach and the team I will play for basically practice at the same times. The team I coach is to practice two evenings a week, and the team I am to play for has it 4 evenings a week. I may only get to practice myself on Tuesdays and Thursdays. I really hope somehow it can work out differently…

Tonight is the first practice with the team I will coach. We have no idea how many kids will show up, and I have been told it could be kids from age 7 all the way to 14. I have also found out that this may be more like training sessions than an actual team. As usual, everything is up in the air ….

To be continued…

Monday, July 19, 2010

Hungry Life

Tonight I was talking with a friend of mine, and we were talking about whether or not it is important to have a sense of urgency in life. I immediately responded that we must, and without much thought I said, "because life is short, and we don't know how long we have, and we should have an impact with the life we get." Of course I was immediately somewhat wishing I hadn't said that because it caused me to once again turn the magnifying glass on my own life and examine whether or not I live with impact and a sense of urgency, and it was hard for me to say yes...

Of course hours after that conversation I'm still thinking about it. I think about it a lot actually, about what's going on with this life of mine. I think that everyone goes through phases in their lives when their "life metabolism" picks up. Suddenly you have this craving for more- more what? You're not sure, but you know that "this" isn't satisfying and you want something. We rack our brains trying to figure out what will satisfy us, and for some of us, we chase after the things we think will satsify us. For some of us it's a career. For some, it's prestige, for some it is family, or popularity, or beauty...we try and we try to satisfy that craving...but just like an apple won't do when all you're craving is chocolate cake, we find that all these things we are chasing just won't suffice.

The problem is that I know, and I think most people know, that in the end, we are craving God. We are craving spiritual experience. We are craving true and unconditional love. But we don't really quite know how to get from A to B.

I don't really quite know how to get from A to B. My friend who was talking to me tonight is an intensely practical person. He recognizes the need to live our physical lives and reminds me of it often, that at the end of the day- well, there's an end to the day, and a start of the next one, and it takes food and water and shelter to get us through it. We are physical beings with mundane responsibilities. I'm trying to figure out how to live out this thirst for God, and this thirst for spiritual experience, in a very physical world.

I'm trying to figure out the difference between selfish ambition and godly ambition. The difference between enjoying my job and working hard at it, and letting my job become my end all, my identity. I'm trying to figure out how my job fits into my ultimate purpose of loving God and building His kingdom. I'm trying to figure out how to be spiritual, emotional, practical, physical, rational, and faithful all at the same time.

Sometimes I am afraid that I am going to live my whole life and never figure it out. Or that I'll finally figure it out after years and years of living the "wrong way." I'm afraid that I'll get caught up in living for myself, in loving myself, and in allowing myself to float through life or to pursue things that just don't matter.

These past couple of weeks I've been reading through a book my sister lent me, "Christ the Lord, Out of Egypt" by Anne Rice. The story is about Jesus' childhood years, from about age 8-11. Of course it is all speculation, but it was really interesting to read and to think through what He was like then! It was good to be reminded that my Savior spent 30 years on this earth living a very human, very ordinary life. (ok, minus the angels and magi and stuff at his birth...)He had parents and family and school and traditions and holidays and such...

In the book Jesus is trying to figure out exactly who He is and what His purpose is on the earth. I know this passage is taken out of context so I hope that it doesn't lose its punch, but at one point in the book He says,

"I wasn't sent here to find angels! I wasn't sent here to dream of them. I wasn't sent here to hear them sing! I was sent here to be alive. To breathe and sweat and thirst and sometimes cry.
And everything that happened to me, everything both great and small, was something I had to learn! There was room for it in the infinite mind of the Lord and I had to seek the lesson in it, no matter how hard it was to find.
I almost laughed.
It was so simple, so beautiful. If only I could keep it in my mind, this understanding, this moment...Oh yes, I would grow up, and there would come a time when I would leave Nazareth, surely. I would go out into the world and do what I was meant to do. Yes. but for now? All was clear...
It seemed the whole world was holding me. Why had I ever thought I was alone? I was in the embrace of the earth, of those who loved me no matter what they thought or understood, of the very stars.
'Father,' I said, 'I am your child.
'"


This passage from the book was beautiful to me because I saw how Jesus was content to know that He was God's. He was content to live His daily life, soaking up the lessons His Father had for Him, and moving each day toward whatever purpose the Father was planning for Him. I felt relieved to think that there are things in my life that won't go as I would have necessarily wanted, but that there are lessons there to learn, and that Jesus himself 'grew in wisdom' (Luke 2:52) and Jesus was "perfected through suffering" (Hebrews 2:10)...The experiences I live through, are shaping me for the purposes God has for me.

There are days when I love being a coach. There are days when I just wish that I was married and staying at home (no, I'm not necessarily saying staying at home with kids, just staying at home. Sleeping. Eating. Letting some sugar daddy pay the bills.) There are days I want to conquer the world's problems. There are days I just want the Lord to come back and sweep me away to heaven. Regardless, each day the Father has a purpose for me to be here. The point is that I live here. The point is that I am His child. The point is that I impact others to live here as His children also. He will lead me in how to do this. Right now, I can keep leading these girls on the basketball team, by example, by loving them. I can keep loving my roommate and encouraging her to love Christ. I can love the people in my church and find out how to help them embrace their Father as well.

I pray, overall, that I will be satisfied in Christ. That just as He was satisfied, knowing He was His Father's that I will be satisfied knowing I get to share in that relationship as well.